All That Gets Left Behind

by Ink Sticks & Stones

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Baroque-folk storytelling music from Toronto-based artist Ink Sticks & Stones.

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released November 7, 2017

All songs written by Nathalie "Ai Rei" Dooh-Tousignant
Produced by Ai Rei Dooh-Tousignant and Pierre-Luc Barr
Audio engineering and mixing by Pierre-Luc Barr
Additional audio engineering by Bernie Cisternas on tracks 2, 3, 5, 8, and 10 (Number 9 Audio Group)
Additional mixing and producing by Inaam Haq
Audio editing by Brad J. Bakelmun
Mastering by Inaam Haq

Recorded at Barr's Backyard Studio, The Lincoln County Social Club, Number 9 Audio Group, and Royal Mountain Studios

Album artwork by Ai Rei Dooh-Tousignant
Old Paper background courtesy of FreeImages.org

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Ink Sticks & Stones Toronto, Ontario

Ink Sticks & Stones is the moniker for singer-songwriter Ai Rei Dooh-Tousignant. Her music blends folk storytelling/imagery with modern music sounds, based primarily in acoustic guitar and piano.

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Track Name: Intro
You’re tired, your past weighs you down
Worn as a heavy crown
It lacerates your mind and memories
It gets so loud in there

You want to shake
The thorns off your skin
Before it’s too late
Escape this place, but I

Can’t follow you
I am shackled I must stay

This place it wears you down
If you don’t go you’ll drown
Ahead you wish to build new memories
You have a chance out there

You run to the sun
To hope and a new life
Watching your silhouette
I am left behind to

Wait, I will wait
For the dust and ash to clear
‘Til then I will sing
But I don’t think you can hear
Track Name: Full Blue Moon
The wolf howls to the moon
His song surpasses all the clatter
It feels so lonesome here in the cold
That he will hide when he cries

In these woods of liars
They say that ignorance is bliss
But you feel so invisible
I will seek, I will follow

Hush now, I can give you some hope
I can hold you in my hands
I’m here, don’t be scared
I will rinse the tears away
On this full moon

When you fall from the sky
Can you hear me call your name
Salty ocean waves sweep you away
The tide’s rising, the shore’s sinking

Hush now, it’s not too late
I can tilt the hourglass
Though the sand slips through your fingers
It’ll buy you some time

Don’t be fooled by the reflection
Of the moon in the ripples
Were you there when it turned blue
I think you drowned in sorrow’s sea

Hush now, don’t let your mazes grow
Or they’ll consume your tired soul
I’m here, where are you
I can pacify the pain
Of your blue moon
Track Name: Clockworkbeats
In a world of wood and mechanical life
Was a girl with her heart exposed to the wild
She just wanted to protect it and stay alive
Scavenging through the junkyard day and night
To find a shield for the gears inside her chest
Met a boy sifting through the mess

He raised his arm and waved
With no hand to say “hello dear”
Two broken bodies seeking to be whole

So she found him five new digits
While he uncovered a breastplate
As he bent and welded it over her heart
The trust it just grew

They spent their days turning junk into toys to play
And their nights in broken cars counting stars
Wanting more than to just survive
Then it rumbled deep within his chest
She opened him expecting a small adjust
But the mainspring corroded with red rust

They searched high and low
Before his clock ticked “goodbye dear”
But rare are spare heartbeats, this we know

From inside her breast she dug out the bits
And gave him all she could donate
When he woke up he saw her wind her heart
The guilt quickly grew


For now her heart could hold
But the hole between gears made every crank echo
He swore not to leave her hollow
Scour all the yards to the edge of the world
But she begged him to wait
With time the spring could work for them both
And she begged him to stay
But he wanted her to feel whole

He raised his hand and waved
With a smile to say “I’ll be back dear”
But it’s been ten years
And her heart has never beat the same
Track Name: Margaret Falls
We spent the day in Margaret Falls
Surrounded by trees and rushing waters
Lost in this chasm
so far removed from the world
We saw each other in the light of dawn

We were alone here in the falls
Hidden deep from all harsh truths of life
That’s when I noticed my heartbeat
and your smile
You never looked at me the same again

For a time we belonged to each other
But only for a while
‘Cause time is a cruel joke
It takes what it gives
Let’s cheat and hide from its eyes

You held me close beneath the falls
In your arms I was safe and full of hope
But then the sun set
and you were ripped away from me
Leaving me with a hole where my heart once beat

But then the sun set
and you were ripped away from me
Leaving me with a hole
where my heart once beat

Now I’m locked out of Margaret Falls
Without so much a sign from you
With every sigh a whisper
of your name haunts me
You’re a ghost in my lungs
my breaths are so heavy

For a time we belonged to each other
But only for a while
‘Cause time is a cruel joke
It takes what it gives
This can’t be our goodbye

Please take me back to Margaret Falls
I only ask for one more day with you
Track Name: Little Vampire Hearts
We are safe at night
When the moon’s in the sky
We are safe at night
When the stars sail up high

Little vampire hearts
Waiting for the sun to sleep for hours
To feed, to run, to play
And watch the village lights fade

From their cave they could hear
music and laughter
The joys of those with beating hearts
They ran down and stuck to the shadows
For a glimpse of what they yearned

We are safe at night
When the moon’s in the sky
We are safe at night
When the stars sail up high

Little vampire hearts
Sneaking through the village
streets and alleys
To watch, to learn, to listen
Wishing for parents of their own

As they huddled near windows
They spied on mothers and fathers
tucking children in beds
They never knew the feeling of warmth
But there was love beneath the cold

We are safe at night
When the moon’s in the sky
We are safe at night
When the stars sail up high

Little vampire hearts
You’ve been spotted
Now the mob is forming
To scream, to hunt, to kill
Run fast back to your hole

With their torches alight full of hate
They search the woods and find your cave
Your flesh burns but there’s no escape
From their fear of the unknown

We are safe at night
When the moon’s in the sky
We are safe at night
When the stars sail up high
Track Name: Storm Chaser
I am patient, I am calm
I'm your anchor, like you say
A lifeline in the changing tides
And crashing waves

Torrid oceans, cloudy skies
Winds on the rise, thunder groans
But you see thrills not bad omens
So you rush ahead

You hold my hand, but won't let go
Yet you chase storms, not what you know

I am on your shore
Wading through shallows
As the sun sets

Tangled in nets, lost at sea
When you're shipwrecked you call for me
To drain the water from your lungs
And ease your ache

My oceans are also deep
Filled with wonders to make you smile
But every time you test the water
There's love and fear
You're curious but unsure

You hold my hand, but won't take a chance
You'd rather chase storms than what's real

I am on your shore
Wading through shallows
As the moon sinks
Track Name: Interlude
The sun has set and stays down
While I still hold your crown
But it’s not mine; it taints my memories
I’ll leave it over there

Since you’ve been gone
I’ve been collecting
Pieces of myself
To fill this hole as I

Wait, as I wait
For the dust and ash to clear
‘Til then, I will sing
But it’s not for you, my dear
Track Name: Valse pour la belle
Salut petite belle, quand crois-tu arrêter
De porter tes armes et vivre dans les tranchées?
Entends-tu les voix soupirant dans les champs?
“La terre est saturée du sang des morts et blessés”

Et les fleurs parsemées et rares
Te rappellent d’une belle époque
Pendant que les mortiers au loin
Crachent les doulheurs de ta fable

Recule petite belle, les cadavres veulent tes larmes
Chantant le refrain pour glisser la prochaine lame
Ton orgueil ignore les avis du vent et de la brume
Son jaune inflitre ton corps brisant tes forces et armures

Et les fleurs parsemées et rares
Dessinent ta dernière image
Sans une consolation
Pour les doulheurs de ta fable

Bonsoir petite belle
Repose-toi dans le charnier
Track Name: The Astronaut In the Sky
There once was a man in the stars
He lived alone with stitched up scars
A hermit’s life suited him just fine
A life with planets and all that shines

One day a star was leaving his sky
A hollow where it once burned bright
"Why are you leaving ?" he asked with unrest
It said, "My constellation is drifting out west."

"But there is a hole I cannot accept,
Fix the design or I’ll be upset."
His world a balanced web of sattelites
"My friends are leaving, I must take flight."

Thus there was an empty space in between
His rational and emotional scene
He hoped with time a new star would grow in
But contrary lessons were on his skin

Inside was a hole he could not accept
A flaw in his design since the day he left
A world of broken promises and lies
But with beautiful smiles and fireflies

And so he broke through the atmosphere
Tired of hiding from all he feared
He landed in a meadow of snow white
With constellations shinging the night

Ahead he went into the unknown
His footsteps the first ones in the snow
Life’s scary when there are shadows to face
But it’s always darker and colder in space
Track Name: Pure and Broken
She found a boy in the mountains
The mist settled around him
Across her distance travelled
She melted and unravelled

Laid out bare and open
Her want was never spoken
Beneath the falls on their last day
He held her and wished she could stay
But she couldn’t
Life called her away

With all the hope she held and knew
She needed time to reveal the truth
‘Cause in her silence she would ache
To know if he could feel the same

And so she waited for many days
‘Til he somehow found a way
Into her arms to speak the words
That she yearned to hear to clear the blurs

He found a girl in the city
She stilled the noise and his heartbeat
Across his distance travelled
He knew peace when she smiled

His admiration grew to love
Her eyes a thing he dreamed of
Where had she been all this time
He wondered almost every night
He couldn’t wait
What if she slipped away

With all the joy they ever knew
Time finally revealed the truth
‘Cause with three words and an embrace
Their lives were filled with each other’s grace

And so they loved most every day
Sharing their joy, secrets and pain
Her life was better by his side
But he had ghosts soon to rise

He found a darkness within
It crept up without warning
Doubts and fears screamed in his mind
His past regrets a confine

Still she held and wanted
The light and dark that was him
Her faith no longer shaken
To her all was forgiven
But he couldn’t
Let her bear his burden

With all the hope he felt he knew
He needed time to reveal the truth
‘Cause in these ghosts there was a pain
He had to face to know love again

And so he left to find a path
Alone for answers that would last
Leaving her broken on the floor
He feared his exit had shut the door

She fell for the boy from the mountains
He cried for the girl from the city

He hits the road to find the crack
Can’t let his ghosts turn him to black
Afraid of what he might become
Won’t risk to watch her come undone

With all the hope they never knew
They prayed for time to reveal the truth
‘Cause in her loneliness she ached
While he set off to mend his breaks

And so she waited every day
‘Til he somehow found back his way
Into her arms and speak the words
That she longed to hear to stop the hurt

‘Cause he was more than a memory
That she kept under lock and key
And she was more than just a girl
She was a light in his dim world

With all the joy they ever knew
Time finally revealed the truth
‘Cause with three words and an embrace
Their lives were filled with each other’s grace

And so they loved most every day
Sharing their joy, secrets and pain
Her life was better by his side
But he had ghosts soon to rise

He found a darkness within
It crept up without warning
Doubts and fears screamed in his mind
His past regrets a confine

Still she held and wanted
The light and dark that was him
Her faith no longer shaken
To her all was forgiven
But he couldn’t
Let her bear his burden

With all the hope he felt he knew
He needed time to reveal the truth
‘Cause in these ghosts there was a pain
He had to face to know love again

And so he left to find a path
Alone for answers that would last
Leaving her broken on the floor
He feared his exit had shut the door

She fell for the boy from the mountains
He cried for the girl from the city

He hits the road to find the crack
Can’t let his ghosts turn him to black
Afraid of what he might become
Won’t risk to watch her come undone

With all the hope they never knew
They prayed for time to reveal the truth
‘Cause in her loneliness she ached
While he set off to mend his breaks

And so she waited every day
‘Til he somehow found back his way
Into her arms and speak the words
That she longed to hear to stop the hurt

‘Cause he was more than a memory
That she kept under lock and key
And she was more than just a girl
She was a light in his dim world

She fell for the boy from the mountains
He cried for the girl from the city

He hits the road to find the crack
Won’t let his ghosts turn him to black
Afraid of what he might become
Won’t risk to watch her come undone

With all the hope they never knew
They prayed for time to reveal the truth
‘Cause in her loneliness she ached
While he set off to mend his breaks

And so she waited every day
‘Til he somehow found back his way
Into her arms to speak the words
That she longed to hear to stop the hurt

‘Cause he was more than a memory
That she kept under lock and key
And she was more than just a girl
She was a light in his dim world
Track Name: The Lady of Forgetfulness
Meiyi she died before her time
Leaving behind a love and a child
In Diyu’s last court of the afterlife
She reached the Naihe Bridge

Meng Po greeted her with a bowl
A broth inducing amnesia
Before her rebirth and return to life
She had to forget her past

Meiyi couldn’t cope
She refused to let go of the joy she once had
For how could anyone with a life as good as hers
Choose to drink oblivion

She wished to cross the bridge with her past life whole
A comfort in dark nights to remember home
Meng Po insisted to forget and move on
Lest the past remains to swallow new hope

Confusion and longing would dwell within
Sowing a soul of resentment
What life would she know once she crossed the bridge
How do we manage when pushed by fate

Meiyi couldn’t cope
How could she let go of the joy she once had
Would the memories lift her up or weigh her down
In the new life she never asked for

Meiyi couldn’t cope
But could she let go of the joy she once had
‘Cause even when we’re not ready to move on
We have to make a choice

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